Year One Without Papa

Hi Papa, this is the first year without you…

I don't know how I am doing it right now. I wish you were still here.

My heart is confused, heavy, and empty. Mom and Peter are doing ok.

You know, on the day of the funeral, the church organisation ordained Mama to be the lead pastor, the day we were supposed to celebrate you and mourn our loss.

I don't know what is going on in Peter's mind right now.

Oh, this life without you.

In this first year without you, Papa...

I graduated with a Bachelor's in Psychology and received the trophy for best student of the year. I know you will be so proud of me.

I also broke up with Chris, I know you will be pleased with that ;).

I found out that Mama never bought her own makeup, you did. She has no idea what to buy, she doesn't even know her shade.

I myself don't know how to shop because you always did it for me.

This first year, I have been alone and very quiet.